Praying for numbness

It is day two of this nightmare. I am still in shock. I think I got about three hours of sleep. That makes five hours in the past two days. Now I have to go to work and pretend that everything is fine. I wonder when I will be able to finally feel 'okay'. At this point I am praying for numbness or ambivalence because it surely must be better than feeling such deep pain. C'mon numbness...don't let me down!