To my spouse's credit

I just got a call from the kids. It felt so good to hear their voice on the other end of the phone. I love them so much and not being close makes my heart ache. I only wish there were some way we could be together more often. I understand that there has to be separation between the parents but the sudden jolt of separation with no warning and no chance to slowly ease away has damaged us all. I would love to be able to spend one weekend day each weekend with them at least for a while. Going so long between visits will be very difficult. I an counting the days until I can see them again. To her credit, my wife had the kids call a few hours after our third-party contact asked her about the girls calling. She didn't have to do it and I appreciate that she is trying to keep the girls and me as close as we can given the impossible circumstances she created. Also, she was very fair in giving so many of my personal items without arguing or dragging things out in court-ordered mediation or some other negotiation. That helped. I don't have any place to hang my art or shelves to stock my books but it feels good to have something from home. It is strange to find comfort in an inanimate object but for now I suppose I will find joy in the little things. I am going to try to be big enough to be appreciative of whatever kindness my wife is willing to extend my way. I want to be hateful and hostile because of the way she treated me but I don't want that rage to consume and imprison me. I need to find a way to let it go and just try to get on with my life. Somehow, God willing, I will find that way.