I don't know what to make of life. I don't know how to live without the people and things I grew to accept as part of my everyday life. The world as I know it to be has been irretrievably shattered and now I am trying to pick up the pieces and create a life that is separate and apart from my family. Who am I? What activities do I occupy my time with now that I have all the time in the world? How do I find fulfillment? How and when will life ever feel normal and complete? I feel almost as if I have simply been erased out of my own life. How and when does that feeling go away? Does it take weeks? How about years? I am relieved to finally be separated from my wife, whom has tormented me for years. I am not relived to be so isolated. I enjoy having personal space but not at the expense of my daughters. I hope my soon to be ex is enjoying the silence as much as I am. This is what she sought.
Our third-party point of contact has thrown his hands up in frustration and essentially quit. That leaves us with no way to communicate some of the things outside that kids that need to be dealt with like financial matters, insurance, picking up my remaining belongings once she moves out of our house, etc... What a mess. I am sorry for his frustration but what other way to we have to communicate? The court quickly grew bored with us and washed its hands of the matter so long as I obey the judge's order. She did what she had to do, I suppose, but it leaves me in a very difficult position of not being able to communicate vital information.
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I AM GOING THRU THE SAME PAIN. IT HAS BEEN ALMOST 6 MONTHS NOW. i WAS MARRIED 7 YEARS AND HAVE A 6 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER. I WAS MARRIED TO A VERY COLD, UNLOVING, UNCARING WOMAN THAT DID THE SAME THING TO ME TO HELP HER IN COURT FOR THE HOUSE WHICH WAS PAID FOR BY ME. I WILL TELL YOU THIS MUCH, TIME HEALS AND THINGS WILL GET MUCH BETTER. THE ONLY WAY I COULD REALLY DISCONNECT FROM MY WIFE WAS TO COMMUNICATE WITH OTHER FEMALES WHICH I DID ON THE INTERNET. I ALWAYS THOUGHT THE INTERNET WAS A BAD PLACE TO START A RELATIONSHIP BUT I HAVE CHANGED MY MIND. YOU CAN FIND OUT A LOT ABOUT A PERSON BY TALKING HERE THEN IF THINGS ARE OK MAYBE IT CAN BE TAKEN FURTHER. I AM PRAYING FOR YOU AND YOUR GIRLS AND HOLD YOUR HEAD UP IT WILL GET BETTTER. GO HERE AND READ THE PROFILES OF THESE WOMEN AND FIND ONE THAT SPEAKS FAIR ENGLISH AND TALK WITH THEM BY MSN MESSENGER. WWW.COLOMBIANCUPID.COM . THEY ARE RAISED WITH GOOD MORALS LIKE THE WOMEN OF THE 50'S WERE RAISED AND RESPECT A MANS PLACE IN A RELATIONSHIP OR MARRIAGE. IT WILL OCCUPY YOUR TIME SOME AND KEEP YOU COMPANY. GOD BLESS YOU
rail, thanks for the encouragement. I have received lots of thoughtful (and supportive)feedback. I hope and pray your daughter will have a chance to get to know the real you - not the one who had to always walk around on eggshells around their mother. Also, I pray they don't end up like her. I sure hope things get better. I am inclined to believe my darkest days are still ahead now that I am pursuing reopening my case. Got some new evidence that proves my wife hit me and abused me verbally over the years. Everything could be different in a few months when this case is heard. I will always fear my wife because she has demonstrated she doesn't have to bother with being truthful so long as it helps her win her case. How sad! Keep your head up, too, brother! As for me, I don't want to go anywhere near a female for a very long time. I fear I would bring so much baggage into any relationship whether it is simply casual or even romantic.
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